Am i the only one that feels like total, complete, utter shit? The kind that the one person youlove whole heartedly loves anything that glances thwir way? You tell her shes beautiful and you love her with all your heart for over a year, and sone random guy she just met and not even in person hits on her and she wants to be with them forever. What would you think of yourself? Low self esteem as it is, youd probably want to kill ypurself with a dull blade, so you can take all the anger out, replace it with pain, release your last breath, and make yoir date with whoever you meet at the end. Ypu just want to scream at them theyre a stupid whore but you know you dont think that and just want to carve it in your body on every limband apendage. Where you just want to curl up with your saddest songs and scream out all your favorite lines, voice broken by the tears you choke on (that rhymes if you think about it lyrically), coughing up blood, passing out from the loss and sudden chil hittibg you like a brick wall, not even noticibg until you wake up in thw hospital with tubes and blood transfusions and a rerun of something on tv land. Days have passed, you ask to see the visitors list, and theres thwir namr. You dont know whether to cry happily, sad and putting yoy in a worse state than you were, or regretfully that ypu probably put them through something horrible as tbeir name appears more and more.
I wish i could do one of these, just to see how much she cared. Id want an honest I love you, not a "lets fuck and ill tell you to gey over it" i love you. I wish she was here so i could hoard the electronics and see if shed hold me or just turn away and go to sleep. I eanna know hoe much she cares.
"judt break me down, bury me burry me", "emptiness of present s past, a silent scream to shatter glass", the eorld is ugly but youre beautiful to me", "if i lose everythibg in the fire, im sending all my love tp you" ,"there aint enough
rain and alchol to was the sins out of this house"
"Runnibg through the monsoon, beyond thw world to tge end of time,"
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